“Glamour is shine and confidence.” — Diane von Furstenberg
What “glam” means for me is a lot more than just the way I look on the outside. When I get my hair and makeup done, I get an extra inch — or a couple of inches — of confidence. It’s very important for me to feel confident before I walk out of the house. Maybe my idea of perfection isn’t what “perfect” means to other people, but I know when I look my best and feel ready to leave the house and be out in the world. Have you ever been to an event when you weren’t feeling your best? You just don’t act confident — you are uneasy and can’t wait to leave the room.
I have had many of those moments where I just didn’t feel confident enough in my own skin to be out in public. It has taken me a long time to come to the realization that we are never going to be perfect. Perfection is just an illusion; however we can come close to it, and at least have a good time in the process.
One thing that I have been doing since giving birth to my second child is shedding some anxiety about reaching the goal of “perfection” when it comes to my physical appearance. I guess I just don’t care anymore about what other people think of my appearance and weight. I am not ashamed to admit that I did care a lot before, however now I am just enjoying being me. Today’s version of “me” is someone that still has twenty-five more pounds to lose, but I am taking my time with the weight loss because I just had a baby and can’t put any more stress on my body. It will happen when it happens. This is a lot different than how I felt when I first had Collette. I was ready to drop that baby weight the second Collette came out of my womb. I am tired of putting so much pressure on myself to attain something that people around me keep pressuring me to attain. I will never look like a Victoria’s Secret model, and I am just fine with that. It’s interesting to consider how many people in the last month have asked me when I plan on dropping more weight — that I look a little “full” and I need to start working out. I just don’t understand why I can’t take my time with everything. What am I rushing for?
The only thing I can do on my end is to not take myself too seriously, and have fun. Most recently, I had my glam squad help me out with the Shiseido Essential Energy event in Los Angeles. While I was getting ready, my hairstylist Angel relayed a quote from RuPaul. “Diana,” he said. “‘We all came into this world naked. The rest is all drag.’” These words really resonated with me — particularly when thinking about all the makeup and clothes we put on. For me, makeup, hair and clothes are a way to express myself. They’re a way to express how I feel at the moment, and not a way to make myself into something I am not.
With that in mind, I wanted to show you guys some fun #BTS action from me getting ready with my glam squad.
Check out the fun VLOG I made below. Also, make sure to subscribe to my YouTube channel for more fun #BTS moments.